Sunday, February 17, 2008

Silent Echos (Working Title)

Silence echos down the halls
Emptiness fills our home
I swear it's your voice that calls
As I roam from room to room

Refrain:
Old memories of you and I
Haunt me night and day
I try not brake down and cry
Wishing you would come back to stay

Old pictires of you and me
Paint our life black and white
My life without you I can't see
My vision blured thru the tears

Refrain:
Old memories of you and I
Haunt me night and day
I try not to brake down and cry
Wishing you would come back to stay

Rings left on the nightstand
Are empty abandoned circles
No longer joined as wife and man
Sometimes that's the way life goes

Refrian:
Old memories of you and I
Haught me night and day
I try not to brake down and cry
Wishing you would come back to stay

Repeat Refrain:
Old memories of you and I
Haunt me night and day
I try not to brake down and cry
Wishing you would come back to stay

Repeat First Verse:
Silence echos down the halls
Emptiness fills our home
I swear it's your voice that calls
As I roam from room to room

Sweet Tueday Child

Sweet Tuesday child
Did you ever know?
How your life would go?
Sweet Tuesday child
How could you foresee?
What your life would be.

So what do you do when fate deals you a bad hand?
Do you fold, to play another day or do you make a stand?
Can you change your stars and cheat your destiny?
Or do you go with the flow of what will be, will be?

Sweet Tuesday child
Did you ever know?
How your life would go?
Sweet Tuesday child
How could you foresee?
What your life would be?

Where do you go when you have been everywhere?
How do you cry, when you have shed every tear?
Can you love without hate, or do hate without love?
Do you curse yourself or curse the cruelty of the gods above?

Sweet Tuesday child
Did you ever know?
How your life would go?
Sweet Tuesday child
How could you foresee?
What your life would be?

You fell into your lot in life without a voice.
Blindly going through the motions without a choice.
So in the end do you chance it and break free.
Damn the gods and the fates in order just to "be".

Sweet Tuesday child
Did you ever know?
How your life would go?
Sweet Tuesday child
How could you foresee?
What your life would be?

Ortha na Seirce

He came dressed like a proffessor of English Lit.
And I thought he was looking at me with an air of distain,
But it only was that he wanted to bum a cigarette.
Feeling vulnerable I held tight onto my manner of refrain.
I wore my shroud of quiet shyness to hide my hurt.
So no one could see inside because I was nothing to behold;
Another poster child for white trailer trash dirt.
Silver, tarnished over the years without care, hid a heart of gold.

She stood at the door with arms crossed over chest
And I sensed an uneasiness with me but did not know why.
I asked for a cig, but was denied my request.
Her husband was gone, with him the smokes, she told me with a sigh.
I went away empty handed: with one unpure thought,
Of what it would be like to kiss her and caress her soft skin.
I had a sense, there was more to her than flesh I sought.
But I didn't know it just right then, that we were of spirit kin.

For months I thought of him as my husband's best friend.
And my kids called him Poppa, a pseudo grandpa that they loved.
With work and family I had other thoughts to tend.
With my marriage falling apart I didn't dream of being loved.
And though I knew he was Daniel, I couldn't see the man.
Until one day he looked me in the eye and asked me about my age.
There was a tone to his voice, I didn't understand.
A tenderness that was the key to unlock my self imposed cage.

I asked about her age looking at her grey hair.
Her answer was a younger age than what I had expected.
She explained to me how her grey badges got there.
"Being homeless and living a real hard life." Is what she said.
We studied each other for just a moment, starring,
Perhaps seeking something more than what we were able to express.
It expanded our friendship into a deep caring.
Our relationship headed into an unavoidableness.

I called him when my husband went to jail.
It was suppose to be just a courtesy call, nothing more,
But I ended up telling him I was feeling frail.
How my husband had hurt our family to the very core.
For several weeks Daniel guided me as a friend.
We discovered so many things we shared, but still could not tell.
The bonds we made just could not nor would not ever end.
Undeniably it was that we had fallen under love's spell.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Healed

I was broken ans shattered
When you came into my life.
But you didn't try to remake me
Into something that I wasn't.
You stayed by my side
And gave me encourgement.
As I picked up the pieces
Trying to figure out
How to put myself together
Throwing out pieces too warped
Too damanged to be used.
You gently showed where to look
For new pieces to use
To fill the holes in my soul.
And when I was finally ready
To put all the pieces in place.
You gave me the last one I needed
To hold the all of them together.
You gave me your love.

Alone

I don't know
What is worse
Coming home to
him sitting drunk
in the bathtub
Or passed out
On the kitchen floor
Him looking hopeless
Me feeling helpless
Or coming home
Alone to dark
Cold silence
To emptiness
To sadness
On the corner it does stand
My house on eleven eleven Grand

Your Grace Amazes Me

I was wretched
I was lost
I was blind
Iwas afraid
But Your grace changed me
Now I am saved
I am found
I can see
My fears relieved
Your grace changed me

Refrain:
Lord, Your grace amazes me
How Your love reigns down on me
Your forgiveness is what savws me
Lord, your grace amazes me

I face dangers
I face toils
I face snares
I face trials
But your grace saves me
You are my hope
You are my shield
You are my portion
You are my Savior
Your grace Saved me

Refrain:
Lord, Your grace amazes me
How Your love reigns down on me
Yout forgiveness is what saves me
Lord, Your Grace amazes me

I will rejoice
I will dance
I will left my hands
I will sing You praises
Your grace amazes me
I will shout
I will clap
I will bow
I will sing You praises
Your grace saves me

Refrain:
Lord, Your grace amazes me
How Your love reigns down on me
Your forgiveness is what saves me
Lord, Your grace amazes me

I was wretched
I was lost
I was blind
I was afraid
But Your grace changed me
Now I am saved
I am found
I can see
My fears relieved
Your grace changed me

Diamond In The Rough

She was born in the buff
Lil' miss diamond in the rough
Life's little cuts and nicks
Shaped her real quick
From the inside
She couldn't see
That on the outside
She shone brilliantly

Refrain:
We shine so bright
We can not see
That life attracts like
I see reflections of you
Inside of me
Only a diamond
Can cut another diamond
Ruby red blood we bleed
It doesn't change the fact
You're the one I need

He was born in the buff
Mister diamond in the rough
Life's little cuts and nicks
Shaped hin real quick
From the inside
He couldn't see
That on the outside
He shone brilliantly

Refrain:
We shine so bright
We can not see
That like attracts like
I see reflections of you
Inside of me
Only a diamond
Can cut another diamond
Ruby red blood we bleed
It doesn't change the fact
You're the one I need

We were born in the buff
Lil' diamonds in the rough
Life's little cuts and nicks
Shaped us real quick
From the inside
We couldn't see
That on the outside
We shone brilliantly

Refrain:
We shine so bright
We can not see
That like attracts like
I see reflections of you
Inside of me
Only a diamond
Can cut another diamond
Ruby red blood we bled
It doesn't change the fact
You're the one I need

Luner Eclipse

Pale ghost of the moon
Hangs in the midday sky
I can't shine as bright as you
No matter how hard I try
Solaris always burns so bright
Luna just reflects his light
Sol has gone on his own
Diana left to rule alone
Night runs after day
I have no where to run
Since you have gone away
My love for you waxes and wanes
It ebbs and flows with my pain
Dark is my soul
Dark is my heart
Dark are my thoughts
While we are apart
I reach for the sun
On a cold rainy day
I reach for t he sun
But he won't shine today
Day swallows the night
In the shadows I would stay
Shining in your light
In your shadows I would stay
I you would come back tonight

Read on the radio at KOPN 98.5 FM on March 28th, 2010.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Wedding Vow Sonnet

I, Anna, take you, beloved friend Daniel,
My Kindred Spirit, to be my husband.
To live out our lives under God's command.
To take loving care of you when you're ill.
And be by your side in times of good health.
To pledge love, loyality and faithfulness
To you for all times, even when we have less
As well for the times when we enjoy wealth.
To always share with you what joy may come
And to comfort you when we face sorrow.
To give you strength for today and tomorrow.
Forgiving you past things that have been done.
I pleadge this vow as long as I have breath,
To be your wife, until parted by death.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

If I Could

If I could take your pain away I would.
I would take it into me so you wouldn't hurt.
If I could love away your sorrow I would.
I would give everything I have for you.
If I could make you feel whole again I would.
I would give myself completly to you.
Whenever you are ready let me know.
Because if I can, I will.

Ghosts Of The Past

Ghost of the past
memories reawaken
haunt me
dead feelings
long ago buried
arise as if
to take
possession
of me
a little boy's
last hug
to his mama
knives run
up and down
on my bare body
he told me
Nicole Simpson
had an easier end
then I would
the nightmares
following me
through the years
everyone I love
dead and gone
I am all alone

Goodbye, Friend

Friend, like a brother, though we be no kin.
Sadly I found out about your life's end.
So many things you left undone.
Your life had just begun.
And one thought I hold true.
When I send my prayers to you.
When it is my time at heaven's door.
I will greet you on that golden shore.

In A Moment

Did you leave me or did I leave you?
It does not matter in the end.
Love died as further apart we grew.
Trying hard to make my heart mend.
I distanced myself away from you.
I am doing good and looking good.
Until one day by a twist of fate,
We had to meet: before you I stood
To settle affairs of our estate.
Yet I tell myself I'm in control
As I greet you with cold reguard.
Deep within, to the core of my soul
I hold my emotions tight under guard.
Everything goes well, until, in a moment
I turn, looking deep into your eyes
heart pounding fast, I almost relent.
Memories rewind, to my surprise
To the day that I first met my mate.
The mind seeks for where it all went wrong
How we lost our love by some cruel fate.
We stood there I do not know for how long.
So close to you that we almost touch.
Finally, we turn and pull away.
Really there is not to it all that much.
We know together we cannot stay.

Her

Her grace timeless
Her love endless
Her wisdom boundless
Her laugh contaigeous
Her beauty flawless
Her heart generous
Her mind studious
Her soul ambitous

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Trials And Sorrows

We mere mortals are born, live and die in only a second of God's eternity.
Yet we expect worldly riches and fleeting fame to overcome our frail humanity.
How we thank Thee for all our joys and curse Thee for all our sorrows.
Living for the triviality of today without a care about our tommorows.
Who are we to think and act like life should be without strife or trials?
Oh, how Thou hurtest from our various frivolous lives encased in selfdenials.
We should honor the blessing Thou has provided in our spiritality.
And being called A Good Christian, the only testament of our immortality.
Let us practice patience, prey and count outr blessing while we do wait.
So that we are grateful when we find ourselves finally entering heavens gate.

Little Angels With Crooked Halos

Little angels with crooked halos
Running around on toddler feet.
Cerub faces covered with chocolate
And devilish grins looking sweet.
Blessed choas reigns in the house
With wide eyed imps into evereything.
Soon enough little ones grow up
And be ready to spread their wings.
So I will straighten their halos
And wash their chocolate covered faces.
Thank heaven for cherished moments
Soon to be grown up with God's graces.

Read on the radio at KOPN 98.5 FM on March 28th, 2010.

Touch Me

Touch me not on the body,
But in the mind and soul.
For any oaf can grab flesh.
It takes the skill of an intense intellect
To peel back the paper thin layers of the ego.
To reveal the true self within.
Hold me not in your arms
But in your mind and soul.
Let me know that we think the same
And that we feel the same.
We may be two seperate people,
But our thoughts are as one.
Love me not with heated flesh,
but with your mind and soul.
Let your words gently caress me,
Ease my troubled mind,
SAooth my aching soul,
And enter within to touch me.

Healing Haiku

Broken Heart
Broken heart and soul
Tears full of salty bitterness
Show all my sorrow.

Destroyer
Family protector
Morphs from loving father to
Family destoyer.

Lillian
Sweet laughing baby.
A loving gentle spirit.
An angelic imp.

Bengi
Troubled hurting child
With daddy's demons passed down
From father to son.

Vivian
Reincarnated
Victim from the past, victim now
Pain from life to life.

O Lord, Heal My Heart
O Lord, heal my heart.
Ease the sadness in my soul.
Sooth my troubled mind.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Love Never Wins

We try to dance around each other without any regret.
Our emotions spinning in an odd sort of pouroette.
Our characters flawed and from our lines we stray.
We missed our mark; we defective dramatis personae.
Left alone in the spot light to perform a duet.
The only one here to try to do a tete a' tete.
The silence becomes louder as the curtain falls.
The audience fialing to give any applause.
A bad review, maybe, for not repenting our sins.
Because for us, it just seems, love never wins.